True confessions...
hmm i can't sleep..seesh! been thinking too much i guess..
better let it out.. oh well..
Okay, it's fess-up time:
For the past hmm 10 years..15yrs? ok..many yrs ago.. i've been totally lame about working out.
Well, ok..im ambitious but all not for long. Joined Taekwondo which only lasted for 1 yr ..good.. lost 8kg.. n later..gained! damn..
Wanted to join rugby with SRU..but chicken out..yeah coz i mite not b able to commit..time..n time again..
enggaged a personal trainer with California Fitness..lost 14kg...n now..gain back 5kg..so..ok..lost 9kg dat equates to..wasting lotsa money.
Damn! i just hate..yes HATE..really hate..ok no..ENVY..those who has high metabolic rate. But again..alrite..must be thankful that im born..shall i say perfect; cukup sifat. Alhamdulillah. BUt again society..yeah our society..hails lots about being thin, gorgeously thin! n so pretty n thin? so pretty n fat? nah.. k wateva..hey i did try ok! there were effort.. n still trying. Kinda pissed off with some fellas who kept on saying that i wasted money just trying to lose weight. Fine! So what if u r bless with nice bods, nice features! its just the exterior! what about ur attitude! hey..buzz off!
Yeah, im not bless with gorgeous bods that don't need to exercise just to look good, dun need to spend lots of money just to b thin. so am i not accepting me for wat im me? ok so this the problem. my prob.
After losing 14kg with the help of my personal trainer..i get too contented. I don;t frequent gym anymore.Used to hit the gym..say 4-5times a week. n yeah..swam twice a week..but now..euw..its like once a week? Mebbe i dun need the gym.i just need to move my butt n go for a jog.
I was driving last evenin somewhere off Yio Chu Kang area...near the landed property..nice houses.. n hell! i saw a young lady jogged!! she has superb body..yeah superb..coz she was in shorts n midriffs..yeah yeah.. so what am i doing now? driving home one evening..n hey i should try jogging! its proven dat its best way to lose wt. even my personal trainer once said..ayu u got to jog..or brisk walking..cant depend on weights alone.. hmmmm
now..my once ambitious schedule had slowly but surely whittled down to a really occasional sweat session. I was constantly telling myself..yet again..i was going to start and then slacking, which was making me feel miserable and guilt ridden. The lack of endorphins relli didn't bother me as riding around in the car or sitting around with my buds for coffee is a perfectly lovely level of exertion for my tastes. But alas, such pursuits do not produce major tone. So i was forever writing rules. Yeah n i do! still do! : I will start going to the gym, run on threadmill and lift weights like i used to four times a week starting Tuesday." and then the day would come ( like yest) and I'd blow it off or work out for one day and quit. Goodness!! Too much of loafdom!!
I guess its the mentality. Acceptance. But no. I wanna feel good. Look good. At least..dat's sumthin i can be good about.. so bottomline..do i haf to b thin just to feel good? damn damn!!!
alrite.. i love this quote:
I may be fat, You're UGLY. I can change but can U?
gosh!!
i need to find one outlandish idea..soon!
n no way its gonna b slimming pills!
sigh!
hmm i can't sleep..seesh! been thinking too much i guess..
better let it out.. oh well..
Okay, it's fess-up time:
For the past hmm 10 years..15yrs? ok..many yrs ago.. i've been totally lame about working out.
Well, ok..im ambitious but all not for long. Joined Taekwondo which only lasted for 1 yr ..good.. lost 8kg.. n later..gained! damn..
Wanted to join rugby with SRU..but chicken out..yeah coz i mite not b able to commit..time..n time again..
enggaged a personal trainer with California Fitness..lost 14kg...n now..gain back 5kg..so..ok..lost 9kg dat equates to..wasting lotsa money.
Damn! i just hate..yes HATE..really hate..ok no..ENVY..those who has high metabolic rate. But again..alrite..must be thankful that im born..shall i say perfect; cukup sifat. Alhamdulillah. BUt again society..yeah our society..hails lots about being thin, gorgeously thin! n so pretty n thin? so pretty n fat? nah.. k wateva..hey i did try ok! there were effort.. n still trying. Kinda pissed off with some fellas who kept on saying that i wasted money just trying to lose weight. Fine! So what if u r bless with nice bods, nice features! its just the exterior! what about ur attitude! hey..buzz off!
Yeah, im not bless with gorgeous bods that don't need to exercise just to look good, dun need to spend lots of money just to b thin. so am i not accepting me for wat im me? ok so this the problem. my prob.
After losing 14kg with the help of my personal trainer..i get too contented. I don;t frequent gym anymore.Used to hit the gym..say 4-5times a week. n yeah..swam twice a week..but now..euw..its like once a week? Mebbe i dun need the gym.i just need to move my butt n go for a jog.
I was driving last evenin somewhere off Yio Chu Kang area...near the landed property..nice houses.. n hell! i saw a young lady jogged!! she has superb body..yeah superb..coz she was in shorts n midriffs..yeah yeah.. so what am i doing now? driving home one evening..n hey i should try jogging! its proven dat its best way to lose wt. even my personal trainer once said..ayu u got to jog..or brisk walking..cant depend on weights alone.. hmmmm
now..my once ambitious schedule had slowly but surely whittled down to a really occasional sweat session. I was constantly telling myself..yet again..i was going to start and then slacking, which was making me feel miserable and guilt ridden. The lack of endorphins relli didn't bother me as riding around in the car or sitting around with my buds for coffee is a perfectly lovely level of exertion for my tastes. But alas, such pursuits do not produce major tone. So i was forever writing rules. Yeah n i do! still do! : I will start going to the gym, run on threadmill and lift weights like i used to four times a week starting Tuesday." and then the day would come ( like yest) and I'd blow it off or work out for one day and quit. Goodness!! Too much of loafdom!!
I guess its the mentality. Acceptance. But no. I wanna feel good. Look good. At least..dat's sumthin i can be good about.. so bottomline..do i haf to b thin just to feel good? damn damn!!!
alrite.. i love this quote:
I may be fat, You're UGLY. I can change but can U?
gosh!!
i need to find one outlandish idea..soon!
n no way its gonna b slimming pills!
sigh!
