Wind Beneath My Wings...



I've always love this song.. call me a sentimentalist..for thats i am.. im feeling so melancholic now.. gloomy.. all because of what happened today.. no..nuthin that tragic anyway..

saint's birthday celebration today... and here i am at home. why am i not there? i just cant bring myself to be there.. wonder why.. kinda weird to go alone. Badly wanna a fren of mine to accompany me tho.. she was invited as well... but knowing her other half very well.. i knew..she couldnt do so this time... anyway.... well,awi was so sweet ..offered to accompany me... but again..why did i decline????.. awi seems to noe me..when im feeling blue..hmm.. anyway..and shes there to offer her listening ear..something is not right here.. i do miss saint.. yes.. hmm.. esp our coffee session.. it was just like meeting him four yrs ago.. and so..i received his sms earlier..asking if im coming today.. i really thot its tomoro.... n yes..he msged again..asking me to b there for both days..its up to me tho... and why am i still here... i dunnoe..


thanks awi... for being here..
sorry saint.. for not being there..

btw.. things went well in school today.. everythin was a breeze.. i love my kids as each day passes by.. mischievious yet angelic i can say... i love it..when each time they will wave at me.. they will just call out my name.. and they will grin.. and all these happenning after class... and of coz..those students who i taught last yr..they still approach me with..their smile..n in fact.. they will wave..greet..n smile..everytime they walked past me.. n i would stop..n exchange..hellos..smiles...n byes..i love teaching them......but sad to say.. mite haf to leave them....for my studies. Early Childhood Psychology Education is what i wanna pursue.. but BA-Hons prog in NTU.. tempts me as well.. hmm... time to ponder and decision has to be made...


oh yes.. lynda.. no, im not tempted to try that acupunture thingy.. no way..im gonna allow all those needles to hurt every inch of my body.. i noe..losing that very much wt.. is an accomplishment. so she lost 40kg? 60kg? Well good for her.. im sure shes the happiest lady..she can be.. I noe not everyone is suitable with that treatment..except her. my congrats to her.. n now..me? i will just jog..and enjoy the breeze..the peace and tranquility of the beach...park..will try somehow..

anyway... where do happiness really lies? need to have brain alone? beauty? both? cant deny..the larger frame..just wanna b medium built..or just right frame... the very wealthiest man..could just wanna b as pauper..so he could live in peace..w/o worrying of being robbed.. someone who is in a relationship..always hope that his/her partner could change for the better.. list goes on... so.. is one really very happy? contented enough?

that's life.. so whether if life is unfair or not.. only u ..urself can ans..each of us noes whats best..well there are only two ways to live our lives...one is as though nothing is a miracle.. the other is as though everything is a miracle..