changes..
guess everyone do change..for the better.. adapting to the surrounding.. well they may choose to change or not...which is just remaining the same. Hmm..ive been doing lots of thinking while i was hospitalised..except at night! ehehhe duh! creepy..n i dun even wanna think!
.well ok..chatted with rini and pinkiecutepie..about life. true.. we haf to accept oneself..accept as what we are.. we haf to find the root to the prob as why we can be depressed. no one should allow us to feel depressed. Guess, ive not met the one..as my pillar of strength... and accepting me for what i am ..me.
Just read Sunday's New paper...the new Pop Idol, Britain's version of American idol.. Michelle McManus... well shes 97kg..but who cares..she has a nice voice..she won the S$6 million recording contract but you see.. she has overcome that low self esteem.. She had found the place where she can be comfortable in her own body. Well not like i am 90kg..no no.... but i think self acceptance is impt.. even pple who are slim mite think they are fat..when actually they are not. paranoid huh?
so they said.. ayu..u r attractive in ur own way..u r bubbly.. u haf a good personality..
and so..thanks..syukran.. where does the fault lies now? guess its the weight issue.. not that i didnt try..u name it.. i've tried. but being hospitalised..is kinda the final straw.. the abdominal pain that was so unbearable.. guess i must start..a food diary..will contact my ex-personal trainer...i must read more books.. whateva it takes.. i hope 2004 will be a better year..
self conflict for now.... n only me has to find the answer....
its all about weight..
sigh in harmony~
no no..dun sigh.. its bad!
ok smile!!
say cheese! ..no..go easy on cheese..
bah!
* he sms-ed couple of times.. i thot we haf sorted things out.. all i could reply for now is a short precise msg...perhaps i shouldnt reply anymore*
guess everyone do change..for the better.. adapting to the surrounding.. well they may choose to change or not...which is just remaining the same. Hmm..ive been doing lots of thinking while i was hospitalised..except at night! ehehhe duh! creepy..n i dun even wanna think!
.well ok..chatted with rini and pinkiecutepie..about life. true.. we haf to accept oneself..accept as what we are.. we haf to find the root to the prob as why we can be depressed. no one should allow us to feel depressed. Guess, ive not met the one..as my pillar of strength... and accepting me for what i am ..me.
Just read Sunday's New paper...the new Pop Idol, Britain's version of American idol.. Michelle McManus... well shes 97kg..but who cares..she has a nice voice..she won the S$6 million recording contract but you see.. she has overcome that low self esteem.. She had found the place where she can be comfortable in her own body. Well not like i am 90kg..no no.... but i think self acceptance is impt.. even pple who are slim mite think they are fat..when actually they are not. paranoid huh?
so they said.. ayu..u r attractive in ur own way..u r bubbly.. u haf a good personality..
and so..thanks..syukran.. where does the fault lies now? guess its the weight issue.. not that i didnt try..u name it.. i've tried. but being hospitalised..is kinda the final straw.. the abdominal pain that was so unbearable.. guess i must start..a food diary..will contact my ex-personal trainer...i must read more books.. whateva it takes.. i hope 2004 will be a better year..
self conflict for now.... n only me has to find the answer....
its all about weight..
sigh in harmony~
no no..dun sigh.. its bad!
ok smile!!
say cheese! ..no..go easy on cheese..
bah!
* he sms-ed couple of times.. i thot we haf sorted things out.. all i could reply for now is a short precise msg...perhaps i shouldnt reply anymore*
