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Sunday, December 28, 2003

i'm home!

Yes, i requested to be discharged since the dr couldnt diagnosed me with any sickness. Weird, i can say. But the pain is unbearable. Even engaged a specialist. I went for ultrasound( ueuw..im not preggy daaa) just in ase they could detect of any cysts, fibroid or tristed ovaries! Alhamdulillah..everythin is fine. So how come theres a pain? God noes how painful it was. The sharp pain..worst than mensus cramp..its unexplainable. Well, the only thing that they could think of is..erm..mite due to my old appendicitis stitches..theres wound..bla bla.. and also..hmm me..eating disorder! urgh! ok fine..i tried to diet many times..but ok let not talk abt this further..

Well, they did suggest i go thru a surgery...ishk! no way! they wanna investigate further..and they wanna put a lil camera..n bla bla bla.. n so..bla bla bla..NO WAY JOSE! ehehe

Anyway..the stay is torturous! Unlucky for me..i haf fine..very very fine veins beneath my 'prosperous' flesh! ahahah So the houseman..eau..total of 5 of them through out 2 nites stay.. and damn! They tried to take some blood. They inserted the needles and tho they knew they couldnt find it..they went further n tried to source for the vein! I screamed and the only word they said..Sorry ah..sorry ah..sorry.. I was cursing and swearing! So now..i have like 9 injection marks... Twice the drip failed to work and so the glucose water kinda stopped flowing and thus..theres swelling! tsk..tsk..tsk.. and last resort was on my right arm! euw..dah macam terminator! eheh

And guess wat, i couldnt sleep last nite. Apart from the needle that was still inserted on my right arm ( no longer in drip but the Dr decided to remain the needle there just in case i had to b on drip again)..i faced a creepy experienced! ok,,im warded in B1 class..4 beds to a room. My bed was just next to the window. There were 2 beds in front of mine. The patient next to me was a chinese lady who just underwent a surgery. We were watching TV when i saw lights came from the both TVs from the front beds. Best part..there were different sparkles of lights..as if like someone changed the channels each time! I signalled to the lady next to me..erh..cheena ah!! she went.." Dunnoe ah..dunnoe" and she closed her eyes. I tried to close my eyes..and ishk!! i cant..i said my prayers..doa and doa..opened my eyes a lil..and this time..the lights kinda shoned to the bed. Ya Allah..it was alredi past midnite. I pressed the emergency button. I was already panicky and yet the misy took some time to get there. She came and I pointed to her to the TV. She was so calmed...she took my remote control and switched off those 2 tvs. She smiled to me and asked me to to sleep. GOSH!!!!!! How come she can be so calmed? was it a norm or wat? gossh!!! i couldnt sleep well.. i couldnt move coz of the needles in my arm.. and each time i checked my hp..it was 2.12, 4.22, 5.12... scary kan!!!!!

So first thing in the morning..i requested to be discharged at all cost. Thankfully, since they couldnt detect wats wrong..i was allowed to go home. phew~ so now..im home!
lotsa painkillers..loads..n loads of them... Will see how till my next check up with my specialist.. and thats when my 2 other tests results will b out.

Oh yes, special thanks to nat and naura. So sweet of them to sent me to the hospital. First time meeting naura..and she went extra mile to accompany me! so shweet lah u!! n oh yes, nah..its not because of wat i ate. This pain has been ard since 3 yrs ago..just dat last friday's pain was unbearable! euw...

and thanks to all well wishers for ur sms..and calls! thank you for ur concern and prayers! Thank You, Kak Ani and my thanks to Rin * winks*