numbness

emptiness

i don't like wat is happening now..
i don't like what i see..
despite the jokes and cheers in the staff room.. i'd rather just stuck in the cubicle and do my markings and well..typing this away actually..
what life has to offer to me now?

perhaps its my work. work keep on piling up..and with the new responsibilities given to me..yeah..to 'doll' my school..its brand new..n its bare. Need to put up all the childrens' artwork. Altho im working on it with another colleague..i just feel the load is kinda too much. Almost everyday, i will receive letters..fax..and all the yr long activities for the kids with the given budget. I'm tired..but i don't wana shortchange the kids. It wouldnt be fair..they are just too adorable to be ignored and their parents so nice..

well..this is life..
nice people around me... the smile that we planted each time..
but deep down..
im tired..
tired over everythin...
n im kinda tired of blogging as well..
and because of this blog-ism that i feel..my life has changed..for good..for better? hmm..
and all the people we've met..and the people we introduced...our circle of friends widen..
im glad to meet this few.. esp the friendship that blooms.

if given a choice and working in a pte sector..i would love to take a mth break..and travel alone...
i need a break..
i need a breather...

dissapointed that i cant further my studies this yr..
dissapointed that i cant join the volunteer work to India this June..
dissapointed about everything!

but at least..theres sumthin i can look forward to..
this weekend..yes..this weekend..

btw...just read sofia's blog..
yes sofia..i agree with u...
i too feel..i don't want to be a teacher anymore...
i wanna scrub the toilet and and tumbuk sambal belacan..and iron his shirts..
but for my case..aha! whose shirts? dream on!
yes yes..i don't wanna be a teacher anymore... but a housewife..and i wanna be a pte piano teacher... thats all im asking for...

oh ayu... dream on...